On Tuesday, we will be back again at the children's hosptial where we lost Zach.
It's hard for me to keep back the tears...even though they're a bit premature.
Tyler's pedi wanted him back on Thursday for a head circumference check. It seems his head is not only big, but growing faster than the doc would like to see. Sure enough, his head had jumped a few curves, and the pedi wanted him to get a CT scan. He tried to tell me that I shouldn't be terribly concerned, but I couldn't help it--I broke down in tears in his office. I've been told once before that "it's probably nothing."
Logically, I know that it's very unlikely to hit the lottery twice--or in this case, the polar opposite of the lottery. But it's very hard to think of my little baby in the CT machine, and even worse to think about what could happen. I wish I could be one of those people who just takes things as they go, but I've had too many bad experiences to do that.
The crappy part is, he's not allowed to eat formula for six hours prior to the scan because he's going to be sedated. I scheduled it for 8 a.m.; I figure that if he's going to be really upset and hungry, I might as well do it after he's had a night of not eating. He'll get up about 6:30, and hopefully we'll only have about an hour of a very unhappy baby.
Oh, how I hate waiting.
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I'll say a prayer that all goes well and that you have to peace leading up to Tuesday.
Oh, no, Ann, that must be so hard! I am glad you have a doctor who is on top of things and serious about checking things out. That's good. And I really do hope it's nothing. Please let us know. I'll keep checking back.
I hope the scan shows truly nothing more than a normally growing boy...keeping my fingers crossed!
Praying for it to be nothing, and praying for peace for you.
I am sorry that you have a new worry to deal with. I really pray that everything will be all right and for peace for you. God bless!
Wishing you the best. Please let us know when you get a chance.
Just saw your post. Hoping things are going well ...
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