Crap

I don't swear often, but there's only one word for all this infertility stuff--mindfuck.

Despite all my "foolproof" symptoms, I have two failed pregnancy tests and a period (that came on Saturday) to prove I was a fool. Oh well. Honestly, the waiting is the hard part. I can deal with failure more than the waiting...the night before I was going to test (on CD13), I couldn't sleep. Yes, I was that keyed.

So, we begin Round 3 on letrozole. I've been counting the months, trying to guess how many cycles my doctor will let me go through (with sex alone, and then with IUI), and I figure that if it comes to this, I would probably be doing IVF by next summer. Not that I'm there yet, but I have to be planning for failure in order not to be too surprised by it.