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Monday, March 31, 2008

P is for Paranoid

Clueless Ann: I should probably write another blog post. But what should I write about? My maternity clothes shopping expedition with my mom on Friday was fun, but hardly interesting for anyone other than the two of us. What to write about, what to write about…
Wry Ann: Well, you could write about your emergency room visit on Saturday.
Clueless Ann: Oh. Oh yeah…

I was feeling pretty darned proud of myself. Thirteen weeks, and no problems in sight! Saturday morning dawned and I stumbled to the bathroom for a pee break. Right before I pressed flush, I noticed there was something…solid-looking…in the toilet, and it definitely wasn’t poo. Before my brain had a chance to register that I had passed Something, I had flushed and the evidence was gone. Oh well, I thought—I’m still tired and I’ll think about it when I wake up.

I woke up, played with the dog for a while then went to the bathroom for a shower. I took my underwear off and saw it was filled with brownish-red discharge. Alarms blared in my head. I called M in, frantically asking him to examine the discharge to see if he would call it “red.”

I’ve had spotting before, but never that much. Not nearly that much. That, coupled with the “something” I had passed a few hours ago, was enough to send me into a frenzy.

We decided to go to the ER because, as M said to me, “from the look on your face, we need some reassurance.”

Long story short, everything’s fine. It was weird, because I knew the ER doctor (he’s one of the docs I’ve worked with on media stories). He was very, very nice, and proclaimed my problem a subchorionic hemorrhage. Heartbeat is fine, and the baby was even moving a little on the ultrasound.

Now I sheepishly sit here, wondering, Was that really necessary? Am I still a nervous wreck about this pregnancy? Would most people have just waited it out? Am I foolishly wasting medical equipment and time? When I get the bill for the ER visit, will I be able to write out the check without berating myself for worrying over nothing?

26 comments:

Bon said...

i don't think you're paranoid at all...with the "something" and the bleeding, my brain would have already thrown up its hands, grieved, and beat its head against the wall three times. so i think you're a paragon of calm, actually. :)

and i'm so happy everything's okay.

Ashleigh said...

i definitely don't think you are being paranoid- that would imply you had no reason for concern. you have every reason is the world to be scared and need reassurance. i would definitely NOT have waited it out......

so glad things are alright!

MrsSpock said...

I would not have waited it out. I couldn't have without eventually ending up in the looney bin with worry. I probably would have cried the whole way there and gotten snippy with my husband's usual calm stoicism.

Glad the visit showed everything was fine. That was worth it, right?

Tracy said...

I agree - I don't think you're paranoid. I would have done exactly the same thing. Oh wait, I did.

Better safe than sorry, I say.

Congrats on 13 weeks!!!!

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ggop said...

I think anyone would have been paranoid about this. Bleeding has got to be in the top 5 reasons to call the doctor in a pregnancy.
Glad the baby is fine.

Anonymous said...

I say you can never be too careful or too paranoid. Well, okay... you totally can, but this does not fall into that range. You have to do what you need to in order to maintain your peace of mind. I would have done exactly the same thing. :)

My doctors better get ready because the next time I am pregnant I KNOW I am going to be calling or showing up in the ER every ten minutes.

I am thrilled to hear everything is alright!

Becca said...

Not paranoid at all...I think ANYONE would have done the same thing that you did.

Glad everything is okay.

Kristen said...

You had every reason to worry. I worry for things much less than that. Like they say, better safe than sorry. If it gave you peace of mind, I think it is worth the bill. XOXO

ggop said...

Ann,
I work in the semiconductor industry and the biggest company Intel's CEO had a motto "Only the paranoid survive." :)

Deborah said...

Absolutely agree with the others! What you did was totally normal and understandable! and now you can relax, knowing the baby is okay.

May said...

Whew! Um, and no, not paraniod in the least. I had a subchorionic bleed with my daughter and all was fine in the end. Terrifying, though. Glad you got checked out.

Kim said...

I had a SCH and bled 2 times bad enough that I went to the ER once, and had a stat ultrasound done the second time in the RE's office. You are not paranoid, you are being a mother. Protecting your little one the best you know how. You should be proud of yourself for asking for help, and you would be kicking yourself in the butt if you didn't do something. But mostly, your visit gave you peace of mind for the time being. Consider it a lovely peek inside at your little one!

Kathy V said...

I probably would have gone to the ER too. Glad all is well. You scared me. The reassurance alone is probably worth every penny you are going to spend when you have to write the check.

Familyofthree said...

Absolutely not paranoid! You did exactly the right thing! Even if you hadn't had the experience with Zach that is still worrisome! Glad its not a major problem!

Alison said...

I think you did the right thing by going. To atleast give you the piece of mind you needed. Your man knows you well. :)

ultimatejourney said...

I would've done the same thing. Why waste a perfectly good weekend worrying?

Geohde said...

No way in hell I would have waitied that out.

No way!

I thnk the visit was a very good idea, besides what value do you place on the reassurance? To me that's not a waste of anybody's time or money,

(glad all is well, take it easy for a few days)

J

Nearlydawn said...

Um - give yourself a little bit of a break... I had the same kind of hemmorage - about the same # of wks. I freaked, and rushed to the Dr. If it had been the weekend I would have gone to the ER, for sure.

You did what any of us would have - really. Your hubby was right - you needed some reassurance, and it COULD have been something.

Hang in there...

Mrs. Spit said...

P is is for practical, pragmatic, prudent, parental. . .

I think anyone would have gone. I think you get major points for not standing in ER and screaming "Treat ME NOW!" I would have. . . .

Thankful you and the wee one are both well.

Awaiting your comments on the abortion discussion.

Newt said...

I'm glad you went to the ER, and I'm glad everything is OK. (Maternity clothes shopping! How great!).

In the Mayo Clinic Guide to a Healthy Pregnancy, there's a little chart at the end of each chapter, with symptoms classified under the appropriate response: "go to ER" "call your doctor's on-call number" "call your doctor on next available weekday." I am pretty sure passing tissue is in the straight to the ER column.

But I like having that chart, so I can show my doctor if I'm accused of being paranoid.

Meg said...

So glad you are okay! I would have been to the ER if this happened....that is for sure.

Angie said...

You have every right to reassurance. I do not think you are paranoid at all and would have done the exact same thing.

I'm just so happy that that it was nothing and that everything is good with the baby!

2Em said...

I would have absolutely done the same thing.

Beth said...

Don't feel foolish for going to the ER for spotting that actually was caused by something. I went to Labor & Delivery a week after being discharged from my cerclage because I was constipated. I felt weird "down there" and thought maybe the cerclage was slipping somehow. Once I got to the hospital, I had a BM and felt all better. Although my doctor reassured me that I was smart for coming in, I still felt like a fool.

Kami said...

You are asking the wrong audience, IMHO, if you expect someone to say you should have waited it out.

The only reason to wait is because you know it will either work or it won't and there is nothing they can do to stop it if things are going bad. Personally, I would go for the reassurance.

I'm happy to hear everything is looking good.

Cyster Sister said...

I also dont' think you are being paranoid. I would have been right in there with you had that happened to us. I am happy to hear it was okay and the heartbeat was good.